Do any of you ever just blurt out something you want to know, to someone who is really important to you, just because you're upset or confused?
These things sometimes come out rude, or.. they spark arguments that neither of you want to have?
I hate doing that. I feel like such an utter fuck up right now and i don't know what to do about it. I know that i upset him or made him angry.. frustrated him and put him in a difficult position. I didn't do it on purpose, mind you.. I mean.. I was told something earlier on in the day, that should have been harmless.. and then he left, except it wasn't harmless. I was bawling completely, and i eventually cried myself into a nap. So.. naturally... the next time i talk to him, it's the first thing i bring up, and in such an accusatory way. There's no way he wouldn't have been offended. I can't find the words to tell him how terrible i feel about it, and i'm not entirely sure he'd want to know right now. I Can't really make it up to him until the next time i see him.. and i know until then i'll be feeling shitty about the whole affair. I hope he isn't, too.
Peace.